[Verse 1] Too many restless nights, my body's shaking My head hurts, got a stomachache Too many sleepless nights and I'm impatient Like a war inside my mind I'm anxious all the time [Pre-Chorus] Fake laughing, but I'm breaking Pretend I'm doing fine Fight with my medication [Chorus] It's been a year Too numb to feel Twenty milligrams of happiness, but when I do the math It doesn't add up, it doesn't add up 'Cause I'm still sad, sad, sad, sad, sad I'm still sad, sad, sad, sad, sad [Verse 2] Too many hours staring at the television My therapist says it's okay to rest My friends are talking and I'm barely listening They call me selfless, but I'm self-obsessed [Pre-Chorus] Fake laughing, but I'm breaking Prеtend I'm doing fine Fight with my medication [Chorus] It's been a yеar Too numb to feel Twenty milligrams of happiness, but when I do the math It doesn't add up, it doesn't add up 'Cause I'm still sad, sad, sad, sad, sad I'm still sad, sad, sad, sad, sad [Bridge] Sometimes, I still have good dreams at night Do my best to wake up smiling And it's been the best year of my life But it doesn't add up, it doesn't add up 'cause [Chorus] It's been a year Starting to feel Twenty milligrams of happiness, but when I do the math It doesn't add up, it doesn't add up 'Cause I'm still sad, sad, sad, sad, sad I'm still sad, sad, sad, sad, sad [Outro] I'm still sad, sad, sad, sad, sad