I like to keep myself in pain Even when the sun is high Shining on the olive trees There's still a shadow in my eyes And that shadow must be yours Falling all across the plains I've got your wreckage in my heart So I like to keep myself in pain In the quiet night I sleep To the sweet cascading rain Then your voices come to haunt me So, I like to keep myself in pain Oh, yeah I like to keep myself in pain It's not conscious I just do Must be something that I learned From all my time with you When people ask me where you are I say, don't ask me that again Even if I told the truth this time I wouldn't know how to begin Pain's the only thing you left me If I let it go Then I don't know who I am In my own brain It keeps me alive, ooh ooh It keeps me alive, ooh ooh It keeps me alive So I like to keep myself in pain