Robinson Ellis - Catullus (Part LXIII) lyrics

In a swift ship Attis hasting over ocean a mariner When he gained the wood, the Phrygian, with a foot of agility, When he near'd the leafy forest, dark sanctuary divine; By unearthly fury frenzied, a bewildered agony, With a flint of edge he shatter'd to the ground his humanity. Then aghast to see the lost limbs, the deform'd inutility, While still the gory dabble did anew the soil pollute, With a snowy palm the woman took affrayed a taborine. Taborine, the trump that hails thee, Cybele, thy initiant. Then a dainty finger heaving to the tremulous hide o' the bull, He began this invocation to the company, spirit-awed. "To the groves, ye s**less eunuchs, in a**embly to Cybele, Lost sheep that err rebellious to the lady Dindymene; Ye, who all awing for exile in a country of aliens, My unearthly rule obeying to be with me, my retinue, Could aby the surly salt seas' mid inexorability, Could in utter hate to lewdness your s** dishabilitate; Let a gong clash glad emotion, set a giddy fury to roam, All slow delay be banish'd, thither his ye thither away To the Phrygian home, the wild wood, to the sanctuary divine; Where rings the noisy cymbal, taborines are in echoing, On a curved oat the Phrygian deep pipeth a melody, With a fury toss the Maenads clad in ivies a frolic head, To a barbarous ululation the religious orgy wakes, Where fleets across the silence Cybele's holy family; Thither his we, so beseems us; to a mazy measure away." Thus as Attis, a woman, Attis, not a woman, urg'd the rest, On a sudden yell'd in huddling agitation every tongue, Taborines give airy murmur, give a clangorous echo gongs, With a rush the brotherhood hastens to the woods, the bosom of Ide. Then in agony, breathless, errant, flush'd wearily, cometh on Taborine behind him, Attis, thoro' leafy glooms a guide, As a restive heifer yields not to the cumbrous onerous yoke. Thither his the votaress eunuchs with an emulous alacrity. Now faintly sickly plodding to the goddess's holy shrine, They took the rest which easeth long toil, nor ate withal. Slow sleep descends on eyelids ready drowsily to decline, In a soft repose departeth the devout spirit-agony. When awoke the sun, the golden, that his eyes heaven-orient Scann'd lustrous air, the rude seas, earth's ma**y solidity, When he smote the shadowy twilight with his healthy team sublime, Then arous'd was Attis; o'er him sleep hastily fled away To Pasithea's arms immortal with a tremulous hovering. But awaked from his reposing, the delirious anguish o'er, When as Attis' heart recalled him to the past solitarily, Saw clearly where he stood, what, an annihilate apathy, With a soul that heaved within him, to the water he fled again. Then as o'er the waste of ocean with a rainy eye he gazed To the land of home he murmur'd miserable a soliloquy. "Mother-home of all affection, dear home, my nativity, Whom in anguish I deserting, as in hatred a runaway From a master, hither have hurried to the lonely woods of Ide, To be with the snows, the wild beasts, in a wintery domicile, To be near each savage houser that a surly fury provokes, What horizon, O beloved, may attain to thee anywhere? Yet an eyeless orb is yearning ineffectually to thee. For a little ere returneth the delirious hour again. Shall a homeless Attis hie him to the groves uninhabited? Shall he leave a country, wealth, friends? bid a sire, a mother, adieu? The palaestra lost, the forum, the gymnasium, the course? O unhappy, fall a-weeping, thou unhappy soul, for aye. For is honour of any semblance, any beauty but of it I? Who, a woman here, in order was a man, a youth, a boy, To the sinewy ring a fam'd flower, the gymnasium's applause. With a throng about the portal, with a populace in the gate, With a flowery coronal hanging upon every column of home, When anew my chamber open'd, as awoke the sunny morn. O am I to live the god's slave? feodary be to Cybele? Or a Maenad I, an eunuch? or a part of a body slain? Or am I to range the green tracts upon Ida snowy-chill? Be beneath the stately caverns colonnaded of Asia? Be with hind that haunts the covert, or in hursts that house the boar? Woe, woe the deed accomplish'd! woe, woe, the shame to me!" From rosy lips ascending when approached the gusty cry To celestial ears recording such a message inly borne, Cybele, the thong relaxing from a lion-haled yoke, Said, aleft the goad addressing to the foe that awes the flocks— "Come, a service; haste, my brave one; let a fury the madman arm, Let a fury, a frenzy prick him to return to the wood again, This is he my hest declineth, the unheedy, the runaway. From an angry tail refuse not to abide the sinewy stroke, To a roar let all the regions echo answer everywhere, On a nervy neck be tossing that uneasy tawny mane." So in ire she spake, adjusting disunitedly then her yoke At his own rebuke the lion doth his heart to a fury spur, With a step, a roar, a bursting unarrested of any brake. But anear the foamy places when he came, to the frothy beach, When he saw the s**less Attis by the seas' level opaline, Then he rushed upon him; affrighted to the wintery wood he flew, Cybele's for aye, for all years, in her order a votaress. Holy deity, great Cybele, holy lady Dindymene, Be to me afar for ever that inordinate agony. O another hound to madness, O another hurry to rage!