Robbie Fulks - If They Could Only See Me Now lyrics

Well there never was a choice I made my folks could stand From the clothes I wore to the rich girl that I gave my hand And they stood against us all the way Told me I'd regret the day I took that vow Ummm....if they could only see me now At a country club, like folks from the country never saw I raised a gla** of champagne to the new in-laws And though mom and daddy were nowhere near I could feel them staring cold and clear in the room somehow Ummm....if they could only see me now Well we bought our hilltop paradise in '95 You see the markets they were rising, and her dad sold high And I look out past those gates of stone To a shack of pig wheat overgrown, and I feel the plow Ummm....if they could only see me now All the c**aine, all the chartered planes All the j**els, the furs All the money you could dream of and it all was hers And the way those people in town would stare You could see they'd thought a moments care never creased my brow Ummm....if they could only see me now If they could see the nights that I sat with the kids While she ran wild If that could see a heart by riches warped By love defiled They'd see a calm untroubled mind Is one thing all earthly gold combined could not emble Ummm....if they could only see me now Well it was 4:00am when they pulled in slow With no headlights There by the gates a last embrace and a kiss goodnight No witness on that moonlight hill But for one who stood alone and still Neath the cyprus bow Ummm....if they could only see me now And she stared not understanding as I stepped in view And I only meant to scare her with the knife I drew Through the air above her chest it wove And then if some power beyond me drove it down somehow Ummm.... Now as a man who's born with empty hands So he remains She lies in a silk lined casket and I stand in chains And to look upon those kids once more But that's one thing the warden never will allow Ummm....if they could only see me now