Rival - Catch & Release lyrics

Father forgive me man I'm slowly picking up the pieces So many excuses given to me I can't believe em I'm stacking cd's of Davids old music collection I heard my grandma's gonna leave, but my time is invested My system is taking a toll of lounging at the crib Gotta get these demons out before they come back in My own blood got beef with each other Stuck between the lines, ima duck and ima cover Project ain't ever coming man but I tell myself that Ima do it Let my tears touch the paper, I'm ashamed to use em To my own advantage because I'm not rapper material Yet I overcame all my problems, what a miracle Rather than speak what was on my head at the time Ran quick as I could to put my feelings into rhymes As of right now I couldn't thank this music enough Saved my life multiple times, yeah, no fist to cuffs Man I promise you, I was never enough Not even to my family or any girl that I loved Society denied me as a human right on the spot I handled it properly, shine the light and I'm hot And I adjust my headphones while I watch the ceiling fan spin Feud of my family interrupted the story telling Of Nas in 89, now I'm stuck in 2016 Protect what I'm seeing like my name Kareem Back in 1997 I was a mere belief Messing with my nerves I couldn't stand what I would eat Barely breathing after my brother told me the problems he Had at that point, now I catch and release All the grudges I hold up on the side of my waist Make the paper escalate and that will be your great escape I don't know if thats true, I been drowning in the pain Pictures of my life time is why I'm still sane Stay up all hours of the night, working or dreaming Living how I'm living might just be the only reason I'll die before I'm 25, waiting to be idolized Probably won't ever be sh** in my idols eyes Working on myself and all my plans for the future Huh, probably in the whip bumping Future Restless until I get everything that I deserve I won't stop till my name is known and voice is truly heard