Confusion sets in the most If I saw your ghost I would use this to show you the whole The thoughts you provoke light the room I’m in And I hate surprises, unevenly divided Now I can’t deny that I wish we we’re both talking like we always did Cause you made it easy to speak Now this old home remembers you I often smell the same perfume you wore on the night we first met Well maybe you forgot you were wonderful Or the way we connected as kids When you saw California, we’re you disappointed? And did you think your dream would look different? I think that this conversation lacks sustenance Now that your’e not even here to talk back As you pushed away from me Secluding you from everything I hoped that I’d see you again Cross my heart and hope to die I hope you find this easier What if there was someone who needed you But the d** kept you sick far from home? Oh you we’re too young, too cool with too much to lose You were blinded, and f**ed up, and gone Why did you leave long before I did? And was I meant to leave early too? To my displeasure, we both grew together To be torn apart entirely too soon You’re always caught up in the wrong place At the wrong time, with the wrong kids How can we smile if we can’t love anything with confidence? How could you be here for me When you’re way too f**ing high for this? Numbness negates your decision I think that this conversation lacks sustenance Now that you’re not even here to talk back As you pushed away from me Secluding you from everything I hoped that I’d see you again And I’ll think of you still till the moment I die And live like you did when you fought for your life Your phone call won’t come in the middle of the night Well it’s a glimpse at the hard truth You never know what you will lose Wherever you may be tonight I hope you find it easier