ReQ Cartier - Reflection lyrics

I try to, sit back and relax up in this cold world But I'm focused on money & f**ing pretty girls My mother struggling working hours for f**ing pennies And I'm just failing in school, the lord should f**ing k** me See mama spent her last on a n***a And I'm the reason why she really wasting plenty figures While mama working and going broke for my education I'm just chillin, f**ing b**hes with no hesitation Picture that, ya mother thinking that her son is doing right He went away to school & left the hood for a better life But in reality, your still the same You left the hood, but the hood in you will never change That's real sh**, like messages on a Sunday morning You know the pastor speaking facts if his people mourning That's why they quick to throw tides up in the n***a plate They believe that he would never lie to they face But little do they know... Contemplating on cheating on me... Knowing that I hate the thought of another n***a Inside of them walls, where many, of my unborns made it I love her, so to me, her p**y sacred But see Nicole a different breed, from ya average chick with double d's She 4'11 with an attitude & thing for weave Her, mother is sick and struggling everyday to breathe This is something on her conscience... Plus I'm f**ing up and watching other b**hes, please I'm barely acting like the man that I use to be... I call you beautiful, we argue, then I call you b**h... ...it's crazy Flirting with ya friends, when you be avoiding mine I feel bad that I told ya Philly joint she fine... Even tho I didn't cheat, I think that I deserved... That little dose of that sh** I learned march 3rd When I confronted you... Living in sin.. I'm so ungracious But to understand why the f** I am this way... You would need a, spaceship Cause my mind is out this world Some other sh**, I can't explain The view is tinted on my window pane No man is perfect, I'm working on being more than Dunna No "you remind me of ya father" cause I barely knew him So you compare me to a ghost, cause they share the same value He shares the blood of his child too... But he ain't give a f**, so I shouldn't give a f** It's all for self, others feelings is left in a nut That I prolly busted in some random skeet... Mouth, of course, I got enough unborns as we speak But I apologize to everyone I treated wrong The list is long, I couldn't fit y'all all in one song I'm looking back upon my past, asking is this me Im turning into something that I said I wouldn't be But I can't f**ing help it...