Relient K - d**hbed lyrics

I can smell the d**h on the sheets covering me I can't believe this is the end But this is my d**hbed I lie here alone if I close my eyes tonight I know I'll be home The year was 1941 I was eight years old and far far too young to know that the stories of battles and glory was a tale a kind mother made up for her son you see Dad was a traveling preacher teaching the words of the teacher But mother had sworn he ran off to the war and died there with honor somewhere on a beach there but he left once to never return which taught me that I should unlearn whatever I thought a father should be I abandoned that thought like he abandoned me by '47 I was 14 I'd acquired a taste for liquor and nicotine I smoked until I threw up yet I still lit 'em up for 30 more years like a machine So right there you have it now one filthy habit is what got me where I am today I can smell the d**h on the sheets covering me I can't believe this is the end I can hear those sad memories still haunting me so many things I'd do again But this is my d**hbed I lie here alone if I close my eyes tonight I know I'll be home Got married on my 21st 8 months before my wife would give birth it's easier to be sure you love someone when her father inquires with the barrel of a gun the union was far from harmonious no two people could have been more alone than us the years would go by and she'd love someone else and I'd realized I hadn't been loved yet myself From there it's your typical speel yeah if life was a highway I was drunk at the wheel I was helping the loose ends all fall apart yeah I swear I was destined to fail and fail from the start I bowled about six times a week the bottle of beam kept the memories from me our marriage had taken a seven-ten split and along with my pride the ex-wife took the kids I can smell the d**h on the sheets covering me I can't believe this is the end I can hear those sad memories still haunting me so many things I'd do again But this is my d**hbed I lie here alone if I close my eyes tonight I know I'll be home I was so scared of Jesus but he sought me out like the cancer in my lungs is k**ing me now and I've given up hope on the days I have left but I cling to the hope of my life in the next Then Jesus showed up said before we go up I thought that we might reminisce see one night in your life when you turned out the lights you asked for and prayed for my forgiveness You cried wolf with tears they soaked your fur the blood dripped from your fangs you said what have I done you loved that lamb with every sinful bone and there you wept alone your heart was so contrite you said Jesus please forgive me of my crimes sanctify this withered heart of mine stay with me until my life is through and on that day please take me home with you I can smell the d**h on the sheets covering me I can't believe this is the end I can hear you whisper to me it's time to leave you'll never be lonely again But this was my d**hbed I died there alone when I closed my eyes tonight you carried me home I am the way follow me and take my hand and I am the truth embrace me and you'll understand and I am the light and through me you'll live again For I am love I am love I I am Love.