Rednarf - Nobody Knows lyrics

If I die today, tell me would it all be worth it ? Was my life purposeful or was it all really just worthless Can't lie, suicide been on my mind Like everyday I ain't feeling alive Opened up a bottle and just take that dive My sorrows right behind me with every stride This sh** sound depressing don't it? Yeah This is how I'm feeling lately Grey skies right over head, rain pouring all over my bed They say how you make your bed is how you lay your head but I don't make my bed i just lay in my bed Thoughts circling like a vulture Emotions exploding cause i done held it on too long I don't really speak on a lot of sh** that's going on Most times I just rather be alone Most times i don't feel like picking up the phone And I just saying this sh** cause it rhyme, really just speaking my mind Really how I feel inside Losing my balance , every step seems hard like I'm walking on a callus Such a maverick individual no Dallas And on my worst enemy I'd never wish malice The other night mini hit me on Skype, like 'yo kev, you enjoying life, how does it feel to be 22' Told me that he ain't really happy and I was like yeah me too And I could feel his pain understood what he was saying Cause i was going through the same predicament Middle of the crowd yet I feel distant I don't feel alive I'm just here existing Wishing I could get the whole world to listen Listen, I'm so depressed that's honest Really I'm so stressed, that's honest Been working on this tape since August Losing it, lost and looking for the light in this darkness Let me stop before this sh** gets awkward I drink a lot on the low but don't nobody know I think a lot on the low but don't nobody know Cloudy days in my life but nobody knows