Red sage - Cant leave this scene lyrics

I don't see me ever moving I foresee me ever loosing I Can not find some thing worth, wasting my time doing Don't I deserve more then this Drama bullsh** is endless The feelings of sleeplessness Surrounds me so I find Myself writing down Thoughts waittin' For the dawn Hope today will be my day Im Tired but don't even yawn In my car I stay Insomnia, restlessness Unable to rest like the rest Cradle my dreams Of being the best of the best Dragging me down Drowning me Under the unbearable stress It's obscene I'm still living At home with my folks Try as I do and roam but I can't leave this scene If there was a god their mean Even for not believing The repercussion seems hard I try forget and drift Away with the percussion But my mental state stays Deep thoughts are rushing Through my head I'd rather be in bed But I'm here rapping instead,, No fuel, can't use, my card So I'm stuck, in my car Tearing my, brain in half Toke from the clear smoke And raring to start So I sit here smoking And practising my on art Looking for work But hard to find effort To begin the search But i made the bed Now i sleep in what's deserve Counting change makes Me feel worthless I need a change yes The Day to day way I'm living is more likely Gunna get me arrested And I can't let my self Live like this Disown my life's past decisions I'd need a restart To get things right Doin my own thing Is barely getting me by Only two ways out I see are getting high And watch my life strive, past Driving in to the ground, fast Or do the impossible Bring my self out, of this faze I'm going crazy Stuck in a maze Going round and round Seeing the same sites Over and over again Isn't this the meaning of being insane Doing this same thing Over and over again And expecting a different result Im still awaiting The landing From my earlier pole vault Will I bounce or roll Hopefully bounce land On my feet and feel tall But I can't even think now Wat is worth fighting for,,