Red Pill - Blus lyrics

[Verse 1] Now I only smile on Fridays The lights turned off The fan is on for comfort But I lie awake (lie awake) Her next to me is lovely She was nice enough to f** me Before we went to bed And now my body's feeling warm and comfy My mind is on some "What the f** is going on?" (Going on) I'm 25 without a basis yet to grow on No foundation Feel like a newborn on the ground naked Tears flowing Mouth open like screaming but no sound making And do I sound crazy? Probably not because we all feel the same We all feel that pain We all drink and smoke and f** too much To numb the chase of money Bunch of f**ing dummies We all heal the same But god damn it we all wake up like "Today will be the day I change" Knowing motherf**ing well tomorrow it will be the same I feel like this is all I write about Depression is perpetual I feel my life and write it down Feeling trapped in my head So I wake up on some late night sh** Feeling trapped in my bed Trying to quit smoking with those Blus But my friend he left a pack of Reds Walked past the E-Cig and grabbed the pack instead I grabbed the lighter off the coffee table Somebody left the TV on So I turned off the cable Something about that late night feeling Had me feeling lost, unstable Put on my Vans Grab my hat To cover my dumb-a** hair Then I walked down those stairs and Out the door and to the porch of my complex Thinking I'm poor But I'm complex I lit my cigarette I'm feeling alone I'm feeling happy about forgetting my phone Some days I'm on this sh** like it's real life Some days I forget my humanity What it feels like And down the street I see this drunk a** I'm thinking, "please walk past, man Don't even ask" (even ask) 'Hey man can I bum a smoke?' So, I gave that bum a smoke And then he asked me for my lighter For my fire Now this is where I get inspired because He said, 'I'm sorry All I brought was my habit' Profound words of an addict Because all I came to this Earth with Was a habit and no purpose (x2) But I'm going to die with a smile on my face Either looking back Or looking forward Let's hope that it's the former