What's holding me down is a form of torture That was touching my there then And still reaching me now Will I escape it I've tried a thousand times Oh, how can you lecture Me on my life When I've been to hell Well I don't need anyone to tell me I'm not trying to be something better Then what I was So here I am suspend Locked in my room and stuck in bed At least I'm alive But still I'll have Nightmares that tonight Will be the same as last night It's the same same fight we have every time Escaping Amman I've tried a thousand times And fell a thousand times And it's adding up So add it up