d**h to your ideals d**h to them You'll denounce me but freedom came when I lost my idealism And you see that you don't understand How far I fell It's all about the mistake that we made To believe in anything No, no you see that I don't understand Your heart this time How do you no pain Faces inside, sang me a somber tune So I escaped outside Where in my solitude I was struck down from behind Oh, but what then got to me Wasn't getting jumped that night It was when I returned to your cold uncaring eyes They couldn't have cared if I had died That night left me alone And its never felt so cold With nothing there for me I Dragged my body my body down the stairs And out into the cold damp empty streets Of an ongoing hell I'll tell you now It's a trick a fix that needs a fix And the only sign of life was the sound of an ambulance How can I justify wanting to be in it as it drives by Taking me where I can rectify everything that's wrong Where I feel no pain No pain, everything falls apart and I feel no pain