Razakel - Dilemma lyrics

[Hook: Ian Stone] I'm schizophrenic hearing voices in my head Been talking with the dead So it don't matter what you said Some things will never change Just put me in the grave [Verse 1: Ian Stone] Since the age of thirteen been a screw-up Got a problem with my life, make a new cut My mother screaming as I try jumping out the whip My brother crying, cause the older brother losing it Throw me to the mental hospital, Saint Luis Force fed, pills stare that was almost my youth At the young age I always picked on, beat up Kicked in the face always stepped on People always laughing at the reject Became the funny guy and gain you respect At Eighteen alcohol became my best friend And in no time I was back in the ward again Twenty-three and I still feel like giving up Malcolm really sorry that we didn't get the talk enough I was too hard headed till that day came You may be gone, but your memory will still remain [Hook: Ian Stone] I'm schizophrenic hearing voices in my head Been talking with the dead So it don't matter what you said Some things will never change Just put me in the grave [Verse 2: Damien Quinn] My whole life I just wanted to die Been tryin to k** myself since the age nine Why is happiness is so hard to find And how can suicide ever cross my mind? Time after time I wanna co*k the nine Blow my brains out, and leave my troubles behind I'm blind to the fact that everybody hates me Even my own mother thinks that I'm crazy But ain't no f**ing pill gonna save me I bring back what's left of my sanity I see your envy has made you an enemy With the devil face, and a heart full of jealousy So here I walk down this road Cold and alone with no place to call home I guess I'm on my own but I did it to myself Maybe these pills will start to help [Hook: Ian Stone] I'm schizophrenic hearing voices in my head Been talking with the dead So it don't matter what you said Some things will never change Just put me in the grave