Raymond Maxwell - Looking for Myself lyrics

[Verse 1: Lloyd Maz] For whatever reason I woke up today and I just wanna say thank you I imagine my purpose here was much more to be so I will do what I have to Never thought that I would see today, try to escape the grey and lose sight of what's real Probably wouldn't even be breathing if last night I decided to skip that final meal Now I feel it when the wind blows Seeing figures looking at me through my window Telling me to keep it moving and I'm thinking I should never try to leave again the other side it haunts me The ghosts of my past now they're taunting But I embrace the dark because it taught me That I should never run away when things get rough so buckle up cause enough's just not enough Now I've learned to be strong But I'm still looking for myself I can tell you who you are But I'm still looking for myself I see the world so clear But I'm still looking for myself Why can I see these things I can't explain but I can't even look inside and find myself [Hook x2: Lloyd Maz] Now I've learned to be strong But I'm still looking for myself I can tell you who you are But I'm still looking for myself I see the world so clear But I'm still looking for myself Why can I see these things I can't explain but I can't even look inside and find myself [Verse 2: Lloyd Maz] Now another year later I can see how the times move on And things are still the same Depression still remains The only thing that's changed is me Except my will to be strong Picking pieces of myself I fell into to find the subject of my next song Cause every piece of me that's broken off It holds a story of my life to help another fight and move along So call me Jesus of this rap sh** I will suffer everyday to make sure you can make it through another Tell my mother that I love her but I never try to call her Cause I'm busy saving others and I'm never gonna hang it up So you can call me back But for now I gotta rap And I don't even see my family cause the music keeps me busy And I need to do it Otherwise the pieces that I'm picking up will be lost forever And I will never make it out alive and find myself You live your whole life....searching for yourself...for your..your purpose..your meaning in life and....you know what? I'm still looking for mine...and I'm fine with that [Hook x2: Lloyd Maz] Now I've learned to be strong But I'm still looking for myself I can tell you who you are But I'm still looking for myself I see the world so clear But I'm still looking for myself Why can I see these things I can't explain but I can't even look inside and find myself