Ras Ka** - And Then... lyrics

[Intro] I always felt I was misunderstood, I would die for my mother, I would shoot for my hoods I would starve for my sons, eat with the wolves Even though I strive for greatest it's all to the good And I love my n***as like I love my fam And I'm turning atheist but it's just God's plan And I'm probably just a mortal, but not just a man I'm a spirit, I'm a will, impossible force fam Psssh [Verse 1] And I swam with a tail coming from my dad's nuts Call it s**m but a n***a made it f** it I have guts 'Cause I beat ninety million potential people to the clutch So I'm here on Earth and I only deserve such And I decided at age eight, growing up in Watts Purposely losing my gla**es So mom would buy [?] Short kid, but big homie saw my heart 'Cause I did what it took respect my one-man march A then I went to public school, really saw hate Whites blacks and Mexicans didn't affiliate Some us grew better, when n***as started getting the next door neighbor's daughters preggers Little half black and Filipino babies popping up Worked at McDonald's for a week (quit), I don't do mopping up Some blew us, some got redder Some of us just specialised and got cheddar And everybody went to college I was in the studio Had a deal with Delicious Vinyl Paul Stewart put me on [?] San Fran introduced him to Paul Brought him upstairs then did ya mama a capella no song Crashed my sh** drunk driving juvenile hall, now we gone Pharcyde got that deal, shooting "They Keep Running Away" video when I got home Yeah, true Hey, but that's called a missed opportunity Now I'm in the cypher slaying n***as in unity First show ever, wow crowd not booing me Think if he paid me, on the low I would do this for free Then I dropped my first record, 'bout to do the second (Teedra gets pregnant) [Verse 2] Execs pressuring me to release "Ghetto Fabulous" Dr. Dre produced it that's to they advantages Garnett sabotaged me, so scandalous Label moved on, don't give a f** about my damages Not returning my calls, one way to handle this Money getting low, so goodbye Los Angeles C-c-c-c-'cause in LA if you broke, the streets start talking you a crackhead you smoke Gave all my material wealth away Baby mama got the Lexus I hopped on the plane Nowhere to stay getting saved by a female Thanks to DJ Scrap hooked up with C.L Saw Russell Simmons said "I heard you moved to NY Coulda at least got ya gold did they even try?" Damn, I gotta start over get hot Took a year, but thanks a case laying doo-wop [Verse 3] David Banner was with me when I told [?], "That's enough dog release me out this production deal" One down, one clown to go Get rid of Priority so a n***a can grow In psychology cla** they teach you life as steps Though I accomplished the first mentally can't get to the next So after Soul On Ice, did Rasa**ination 1998 fighting a bad situation Ran into Doc, chilling with big bro Listen to final mixes of The Eminem Show [?], then he gave me a bar Said "If you stay on that label you will never be a star" Five album contract, f** three mo' Y2K, too slow, they k**ed Van Gogh A year later the label come with the absurd The Dre song my single, but they ain't never heard it f** that verdict Coke and a smile, said "If you ain't do it first we ain't putting you out" [Verse 4] And that's how the Goldyn Chyld got aborted Snatched my masters moved to New York kid Made a hunnid grand, won't do another bid State time n***a but it is what it is And I got out on parole, f**-f**ed up again Did the BET Awards [?] and went back in Not my first rodeo, feeling like it's corny yo [?] the only people there for me though And I'm thinking how to get to the next chapter Well my career's been sh**ty But I'm the best rapper 'Cause I ain't taking minimum wage Fellas can't be lawyers, no military I'm overage Nowadays only garbage rappers get paid But I'm most happy in the booth and onstage Think of my favourite hip-hop moments, like Rhyme & Reason movie premiere and I was on it Chilling with Nas the day he dropped "Ether", for D&D, same night I saw Jay Z When Big L took me to After-Hours in Harlem With Big Pun who at the time who I'm loving the bardom When The Lox and Canibus rhymed at Maria Davis Anger management took my twins backstage Just literally had 'em onstage while [?] performing All-access pa**es, Snoop was like "Oh cuz you got two Ras Ka**'" Then Xzibit made a beat, banging on the wall to Ras and Tash spitting star-studded crowd My lil n***as ripped it to say the least Then Jeff from [?] pulled out a twenty apiece Said "Freestyles is dope but youngsters get paid for what you do" You will never hear words spoken more true Watch how my n***as grew now they taller than you I just pray they a better father than you Ras [Verse 5] And the story begins where it ends, 'cause I lost a lot of fam that's why I don't have a lot of friends And now I understand got to finish what I started Much more to a T than being a rap artist Cathartic but the fathers from executing [?] Y'all respect the hottest and reward what's retarded But I'ma play the game get the fame and win regardless Make my final album say "f** y'all corny a** n***as" and retire for trill with like five hunnid mill Create some schools like Oprah, 'cause I'm trying to build And that's when I'm in my sixties trying to chill Become a archeologist, 'cause I am the reel Hahaha Yo, Cee Cee, f** this song man, let's move on