Raj Parker - Coldest Winter lyrics

Hook [Kierra Sari] In the coldest winter I try to remember All the pain and the hurt I've caused yeah Why can't I see past my own flaws here In the coldest winter Hiding in this river As I slowly descend to the bottom But I don't know who'd forgive a monster Verse 1 [Raj Parker] Chillin in the dark...all by my lonesome Yes I mean alone, even God is absent Can't hear him. Can't hear him calling out my name I want him to speak to me loud and clear again Like he used to, when I was a snot nose, seven years old, but I preached like I was 24...and fearless, but looking back just naïve It's easy not to fear what you've never seen turn against you, leave you out in the cold with nothing to defend you, stripped bare naked all in shame they never let you Live it down, never let it go, never forgive, never forget, I'm never gonna go To this new level, ain't nobody gonna feel my pain. I reached out for reconciliation, no one came. The only ones who spoke were those whom I didn't offend Which means in their hearts they do not wish to make amends And if this bit doesn't k** me...I know another thing will soon I ask again: "Yo, can anybody hear me?" If I remain here imma lose it Hook [Kierra Sari] In the coldest winter I try to remember All the pain and the hurt I've caused yeah Why can't I see past my own flaws here In the coldest winter Hiding in this river As I slowly descend to the bottom But I don't know who'd forgive a monster Verse 2 [Raj Parker] Yeah. My name got about 20 letters in it...but only 3 syllables What I've become over past time, as I hardened my heart to this worlds cruel cynicals The non believers and all the fakes. I used to be different, then I started to a**imilate Affiliate. I started to adapt. My improved mind de-evolutionized, I took a step back to the dark ages; Where there was no God. Live and die by the sword, eat by progress If you failed, left you face down in the water or caught up with the latest plague so why bother Just live your life as pauper. There's no merit in always trying to be a prince Since I can't live like a king I've let go of "already" and stopped believing in "not yet" Hook [Kierra Sari] In the coldest winter I try to remember All the pain and the hurt I've caused yeah Why can't I see past my own flaws here In the coldest winter Hiding in this river As I slowly descend to the bottom But I don't know who'd forgive a monster Verse 3 [Raj Parker] So now I understand what I'm called to The beast must be slain, I cannot remain caustic I gotta let it all go, no more bravado. Boasting in my rhymes I must now speak softer Even though I knock him, it's probably how Da' T.R.U.T.H. felt After the Faith was nominated, sure we all felt Like he deserved the Grammy, the greatest Christian spitter ever to pen all them lyrics down, gotta give him that Then he changed. The burn left. The fire left his breath, had us all looking like who the what is that? The REAL truth. Who we should have known. No more aggression towards the body, his covers blown To smithereens, pieces. Try to pick em up. But we didn't see it, this the voice of one Whom the peace of Jesus has completely overtaken A heart of a man that no longer gives wins to Satan So we should praise him, once we see the big picture Go on, be foolish and try to put a frame in You can't. An impossible task. Lets just be honest and say the concept of submission is hard to grasp For all of us, struggling as laymen. Let your nays become "Yes"s and Amens The love of God penetrates and makes a-mends. Throughout the pain I will submit to these chang-es