R.L. Kelly - Familiar Haunt lyrics

I hate my mind and I'm stuck here in it And I don't know what I'll do but I'll probably quit 'Cause everything that I love I turn into sh** And that makes me sad and I'm not really mad I just don't understand why I am who I am And why I don't do everything that I can To make myself better and be a good friend Stuck here in nothing that's my own fault and preference Being alone is nice and depressing But really I'm sad 'cause I know I'm the best of the worst Knowing what I am makes me sad and just really hurts