Quorthon - The Notforgettin' lyrics

I can see it clear now still I'm more and more confused The ways of fate are vicious or is that just an excuse we use And all the more I experience as these incidents comes by Don't know if I still wanna learn the lesson for the pain makes me wanna die I'm a man always very cautious before I choose, oh yeah I'm a man always ready to wait many years I have practically nothin' left to shred if I'd lose again My prize seem to be to end up choking on my tears For when the lights have gone out I seem unable to sleep The pictures flick in my mind I close my eyes still I see I'd give it all that I've got to make it go away Nothin' can change what's been done nor what we do or say I can feel it coming how it's crawling up from inside Less time now in between to recover and there's nowhere that I can run or hide I wish that I could scream and shout out really smash all things up in my realm To let go of my regrets and anguish but tell me how to smash one real bad dream Once again I have found myself awake in the night And the days I spend thinking of something happening way back in time I regret and keeping on having to hurt fills me with fright What is k**ing me slowly just won't go out of my mind For the lights have gone out...