Propaganda (US) - We "Sketchbooks" lyrics

I keep my notebook closer than most it refuses to boast When the pushin get the shovin' and the lovin' is rare It's like a nightmare out there but never mind that I'm chillin' On the verge of blowin' out the serge with God Given word Just buildin', bein' a man stick to my decisions Hold to my conviction to keep up, tunnel vision Some contemplate suicide when times get like this, While others hold to hope and get open to cope and I tend to lean to day dreamin' about what could have happened If I wasn't always rappin or breakin' or gone paintin' Or maybe, I outta, take time to reprioritize, you near family I ain't Tryin' to cut the ties I put down my pride for fellowship to rise But you swear that I',m being unfair and I don't care It's dumb in hind sight to share my woes And expect yal to get what my notebook only Knows Throughout my whole life man Its just been we, Sketchbook, notebook, goodbook we Sunshine, and rainfall never mind man it's all good Its just we X2 She gon' look me in my eyes like I'm supposed to understand, The demand of takin your name would crush my frail frame She took love in vain I thought, we would sutain fought tooth and nail Dredd to shell toe to get it crackin Rap, overtime to gain couple mo' scratches a month Jump from apartment into own house and home Leave it alone before it hurt ya were the warnin's Every mornin' now I mourn for a love denied tears in my eyes I thought the ring was bangin' me and Zane picked it out It's a shame without a doubt I guess I pushed her too far and Too fast that's the price of tunnel rat life to put the vision first same The uncalled get washed away in the rain sometimes the strongest Hearts be the ones that been slain. It's foolish to think that we won't disagree but their's nothin' I can do if you don't Believe in you Throughout my whole life man Its just been we, Sketchbook, notebook, goodbook we Sunshine, and rainfall never mind man it's all good Its just we X2 It ain't like we don't get along I'm sayin' y'all are cool But the callin' stand above us all and y'all wood act a fool I don't know I close my eyes and take a shot in the dark If I said the wrong things then the gossip would start I can tell by your words what you got in your heart Yal is tryin to keep it real wit' no idea where to start Find it in your soul to pray for me I'll do the same It's best if we give a pound and go our separate ways It's now more obvious our goals are opposites You ever been called home by the cries of the projects If not, I doubt that we could ever share a stage I was raised for the war y'all is lookin for the praise Consider me an enemy but I promise you this Take my life and I moe die with a mic and clinched fist Sketchbook in pocket, goodbook in heart Face it yal and we just ain't meant to be Throughout my whole life man Its just been we, Sketchbook, notebook, goodbook we Sunshine, and rainfall never mind man it's all good Its just we X2