Promonant - Take a Step Back lyrics

1995, born alive, already crusified Demons in my eyes, fear up in my mind, ion wanna die Blood around my hands, gotta be a man, how will i survive Lights shining bright, goddamn caught a ni**a by surprise Moved out of mama's house went to grannys pops started hating on me Mama said you made ya bed lie in it son i ain't waiting on ya Told my teacher fu*k school skipped class then started smoking weed Late nights contemplating suicide back when i was at 15 All the kids, picked on me, laughed at me, yea used to call me slow Fighting back and forth with granny every night so i ran away from home Gma gotta ni**a tryna run sh*t but he cheating on the low Feds watching every single move i make like a ni**a on parole Late nights i was outside with my cousin we was snorting blow Hooked up off my meds got scared i was finna lose control Grandma sent me to the mental institution i was tryna sell my soul Been depressed for a long time when you see me you will never know Voices in my head, say they want me dead so i gotta panic Doctors on my ass, say i'm off my meds now i'm schizophrenic I been down bad, running from the cops, boy i been a savage If you didn't know a ni**a you would probably think i was very average 1995, born alive, already crusified Demons in my eyes, fear up in my mind, ion wanna die Blood around my hands, gotta be a man, how will i survive Lights shining bright, goddamn caught a ni**a by surprise Late nights in the booth, i'm the truth, that you already know Probably be a ghostwriter but, my flow too original ni**as see me in the hood, posted up, feet down ten toes I been out on every block closing shop, everywhere well known Ever since my father died, sh*t changed, nah it ain't been the same Still i rise, head up, to the clouds, til they all know my name Started rapping 2014, now a ni**a tryna run the game Met a couple local rappers, but i'm not looking for the local fame Took a break, stepped back, for a minute, had to get my mind right Time coming sooner than i know it, so i'm focused on the limelight Pray to god on my knees head bowed fore i go to bed at night Try to do the right thing but i'm lost searching for a better life Independent own label no favors do it by my lonesome Even though i used to work for a ni**a ion need no one Plugged in get respect cut the check now i'm getting all the funds Pce still a team still a dream all my ni**as having fun Thought i had to quit, said i wasn't sh*t, kept on doing me Every word i spit, i can back it up, ain't no hoe in me ni**as still hate, ni**as hella fake so they envy me Making no mistakes, i can't let these haters take my energy 1995, born alive, already crusified Demons in my eyes, fear up in my mind, ion wanna die Blood around my hands, gotta be a man, how will i survive Lights shining bright, goddamn caught a ni**a by surprise