Professor Green - Goodnight lyrics

I kick flows, rip shows, think it switched though sh** no, it ain't any different when I get home I shift po to get dough, lust P's if you ain't ever been broke For you to judge me's an insult, it's my life an I'm living it Agreed we all have choices but mine limited mostly by my decisions If I knew then what I knew now I'd a lived live different I'd be a different me but I didn't so this is me Me in my position, what would you have done Would you of done what I did? Am I what you would become? My guess, my guess is you would of succumb like I did The decision was mine but I was too young And I picked the wrong path, I went the wrong way Left school then got the grade, banged it out, got my pape's Stacked my P's, copped a cake, I'm holding weight now Made a brick of a ounce and ain't been in the jailhouse I intend on staying free, free for me don't mean free from stress Lay in bed but I ain't asleep From I need rest I just blaze the tree's Drift off hearing my nan say to me Goodnight, God bless I'll see you in the morning Goodnight, God bless I'll see you in the morning I'm a dreamer but can only dream as Long as I'm asleep I've been having trouble sleeping See nanny, Edie ain't here to say goodbye no more I had to say goodbye to her, inside is where resides the hurt Now all I feel is pain, after that nothingness After that nothing since after that there's nothing left Some of her last words were I can't fight forever Like she wanted to give up and of life she was fed up She had to go but I wanted her to stay 'Cause ever since she left, things haven't been the same I need a new shelter from the rain My face looking weathered, a facety looking bredder, I'm fed up I know not what to do See, I'd love to say that I don't give a f** but I do The gift and curse that I'm blessed with The pressures on road ain't nothing to the emotions that I wrestle with Stress got me in a figure four, raw is what I'm thinking I wonder what I'm living for, is it only to hurt first my great nan? Now I gotta put my dad in the dirt Back in the earth, I wished we could have patched it up first I was so angry though, I just couldn't handle the hurt Now you're in the back of a hurse It hurts more than it ever did Sometimes I wish that I had never lived Feels as if it would have been better if I never did, live I don't know how I'm ever gonna get through this sh** I swear down blood, I'm runnin' on empty My life ain't nothing to be envied, so goodnight