Prince Zuko - The Cynic lyrics

Yeah really should have wrote this sh*t down Can't even speak my mind without writing it It's cause I'm that cloudy right now Can't speak my mind Till I speak my mind Right now And I'd rather be surrounded by vultures than those who idolize me At least they'll feast on my carcass not on my dying body I've watched em tell me that they love me to my face And then they turn around and fu*k me from behind I've watched people create enemies out of thin air, living just to make sure that people fear them I've listened to those closest in my life right now and I'm not sure if they know that I can hear them They keep saying you're the sum of the 5 closest people around you Don't realize how that makes me feel Face turning warm, realization sinks in These people don't define who I really want to be But these people define who I am at this moment These people define my darkest desires Lust, Greed, Pride, Sloth Love, Sex, Drugs, Death Got enough money for another month of rent But what about the month after that Kinda wanna run to the west part of the map Live up to names that resonate in my soul Pick up where Diogenes left off Speak from the streets like Emperor Norton Live how an artist should, practice in the methods of Erik Satie Made a schedule for myself but society got in the way Maybe I should leave it all astray Listen back to my old music, you {CAN'T fu*kING} tell what I'm tryna say Don't really think I can boil it down lower than this I know a guy who claims to know people He spends about %50 of the conversation explaining to you how he reads and understands people But is always the one you have to explain the situation to Took you 5 months to see that I don't give a fu*k Talk about being a stoic while you complain about your inner demons like no one else in the room is struggling It's all love, bruh Am I the only one who notices way too many Freudian Slips Or maybe that's all a bunch of bullsh*t It seems you notice more coincidences when you get in your feelings They're probably always there You just notice them when you pay attention Once you break out of the simulation And realize all the signs Wrong Way Turn Around Run as fast as you can But I'm still sitting here reflecting