Porch Cat - Ballad For Winter lyrics

I've been sitting in my bedroom Sleeping for days, but my bed feels empty I'm tired of keeping still If I don't burn this down, who will? My head's aching all the time I've been silent but my throat burns Old man winter's got me down His hand on my throat and my back on the ground Haven't been eating much and haven't been eating right I'm awake in the morning ‘cause I can't sleep at night Addicted to the substance of delusion and distress Addicted to the way my heart beats in my chest The sound of hail has got me freezing The charm of hell is not beyond reason Drive across the state in snow Aimless ‘til I find somewhere to go Sometimes I want to scream Until my throat is numb and I can't breathe Sometimes I want to run away Find the desert, find the sun someday Haven't been eating much and haven't been eating right I'm awake in the morning ‘cause I can't sleep at night Addicted to the substance of delusion and distress Addicted to the way my heart beats in my chest Haven't been eating much and haven't been eating right I'm awake in the morning ‘cause I can't sleep at night If freedom is the answer, then achieving it's the test Addicted to the way my heart beats in my chest