Philly - The sands of time lyrics

(chorus)- Lois All they see is a smile But they don't really know what's inside of me See I've been here for a while And I've been hurting silently Cos the past it haunts me It taunts me Like the future doesn't want me If i could go to the past! and turn my life around! (v1) Just one wish, that's all i ask for And if it's granted, my life could mean much more I'm sick and tired of pretending to be hard core Cos all the painful memories keep creeping through the back door And they haunt me At such a young age abused by a girl old enough to be my aunty This is crazy, it's so unheard of If she was here i swear I'd freaking blow her head off But this was bottom of the hierarchy Later addiction to p**nography And they thought my life was perfect Cos they couldn't really see the dirt deep inside of me I doubt i was past eight years old But i pa**ed to be a forty eight year old And my past never gets old If only i could turn the hour gla** (chorus) (v2) The years grew and i got older But it was far from over Cos they hurt also grew and made my life colder And though i tried my best to get bolder The pain drove me nuts like a range rover I felt dirty and real low Like the only sinner in this world, i didn't know Who to talk to so i tried to make it solo But the more i tried solo, the more i fell so low So i tried to talk to daddy but he felt that it was funny so he just laughed Cos he felt i was too young to even understand certain things i said And it hit me so hard So i was smiling on the outside, dirty on the inside Walking on the wild side And my pillow got real wet in the night time Invent a time machine and i would be the first to buy one (v3) - Philip Yeah, I get it You've made mistakes in your past life Like when you walked away and then you pa**ed Christ I know it bites you ain't walked right Plus what's left in the past is never really made right.. right? Nah, I used to think the same thing But the king came, washed out all our sins man He took away our shame, see He promised when he hang that All our evil days and ways would be erased man! "but I'm so full of stains, still do my crime I've been used, abused, I guess I'm doing time Daily bruised, people hating every time I cry and I'm sick of living, I'm debating if I'm even trying!" You ain't lying, we be sinning in the worst ways But Jesus paid our price and then He gave our lives change The Son's risen, we'll be living in our best days But He'll only lift you when you're kneeling with your hands raised! I promise if you let he will turn your life around!