Pessimist Tradition - Pessimist Tradition lyrics

(XEL) Lately I been feeling like nothing is okay Unless I had a couple puffs and some Jose' Stuck with the co-pay Got these little demons on my shoulder That are telling me "f** what the hoes say" Try to recapture the feeling, it's stacked to the ceiling I went out as a hero but then came back as villain Man, I'm after the millions too, don't get it twisted If this rap sh** don't work for me I'm a still need them digits This an ill evil sickness that I'm living in I got anxiety in my veins depression is my imprisonment Desolate conditions, a pessimist tradition You'll never get to listen to my b**hing no more I'm giving in But God damn, man you so funny But I'm on the edge on sanity barely living off no money How's a tiny bit of laughs, gonna pay the bills They gone find in the gra**, with another plate of pills, sh** (Hook) Everybody hates me, I'm losing control Another bottle down, I am moving too slow Reading from a script then... no beating this addiction Don't ruin the show We've been over this, feel nothing is a cold as this Feel like I barely know what sober is Time to give it up, time to fess up admission Is free with me, cause that's the pessimist tradition I don't wanna stay and k** the relationships I have left Playing with the past less but Satan's at my lab test Taking in a fast breath, and hoping I'm a be alright Hoping I can see the light, open up a deeper sight I need to write, but tell me what about? My friends and family all of them I cut em' out They want to see me fail, so I gotta take another route Trying to get me in a jail, so a lot are fake no love devout Tell me why I'm trying to impress, people it's time to confess, evil Inside of my chest, lethal and I should know Violent of stress feel like needles I'm kind of a mess, see through Got lined up regrets, leave you inside of a show So yeah I climbed to the top when I young but still I don't know when I fell And you playing with poker kings now and you showing your tell Ain't nobody really worried about me I'm out G, and I'm going to hell (Hook)