Perseverance - DSM-V lyrics

[Bonus Track] [Music by Rhys Mathew, Lyrics by Gareth Sansom] In my memories I can see the sky as it was when I was a child Gazing up above the fences of our yard It was endless, so beautiful and blue My world, the world I knew was so small Our humble home the universe There were no crowds, no town No thoughts of backing out I haven't been able to since then To just lie in the gra** And let my thoughts run into those endless skies To lose all track of time And just live again.. Everything has changed now, and changed forever I can't see the vibrant colours as they used to be Or hear the wind rustling through the trees It's all lost it's flavour All hope has slowly been replaced by fear Fear of destitution, fear of rejection and of failure Fear of losing it all I sometimes feel that the only reason for perseverance Is in the hope of feeling once more like we did when we were children Of feeling the security of our family, and of our childhood And the belief that things really would get better I chanced to walk past that old house the other day I am still there, somehow, lying in the gra** Looking up and watching the clouds pa** by The child is still there, in that calm world Forever innocent, forever hopeful His Mother and Father will always be there to love him I thought to myself as I pa**ed; That I have made so many mistakes in my life I have drifted so far from the path That I can no longer find my way back through the darkness That I have failed this child so utterly, so completely Just as the reality of the world has failed him That I don't deserve to be here, in this place I stood then and looked at our house one last time Just long enough to allow what happiness remained in me To leave my body, and rejoin that child in his perfect world Of love and joy, and laughter Of warmth and peace, and beauty Before turning back toward the decaying highway And returning to the awful mess my life has become