Pearl Jam - Once (remix) lyrics

i admit it...what's to say i relive it...without pain backstreet lover on the side of the road i got a bomb in my temple that is gonna explode i got a sixteen gauge buried under my clothes i play... once upon a time i could control myself once upon a time i could lose myself oh try and mimic what's insane... i am in it...where do i stand? indian summer and i hate the heat i got a backstreet lover on the pa**enger seat i got my hand in my pocket, so determined, discreet... i pray... once upon a time i could control myself once upon a time i could lose myself (you think i got my eyes closed but i've been lookin' at you the whole f**in' time...) once upon a time i could control myself once upon a time i could lose myself once upon a time i could love myself once upon a time i could love you once... once... once... once...