the only thing i will remember about my chinese violin teacher's wife's funeral after she shot herself and left a brown stain on the floor in the teaching room by the picture window which she might have done by spilling a plant or shooting herself the only thing i remember i was 9 or 10 is her friend at the podium at the church telling stories the only thing I can remember: “why do americans put cheese on everything?” i can't even remember what she looked like.