PANTyRAiD - To My Future Self lyrics

Verse 1: It's funny how they all runnin' in circles around me, always doubting me Pouting when I'm alone even though my familys proud of me I've never been part of the in crowd, in their spherical So to make up for the bad times I get lyrical Trust me I get a head rush, when I write a dope line cause I've always been told I wasn't enough I don't hold a grude but if I was you I wouldn't blink twice I'm just livin' my life according to my fathers advice Be a kid, have fun, yeah that's what he told me Being a kid I've learned that my father will scold me And patience is virtue And remember son I don't want you out late pa**ed your cerfew If there's one thing I've learned, don't become attached To anybody, in due time your back gets stabbed Then scabbed up and scarred Then you're left with a bunch of memories just wondering who you are Travelin' through a dark path in your empty mind You get the nerve to ask yourself why you even try I've been down that road, have you? Check yes This is a letter to my future self emotional wreck Chorus: Hey man, just stick with it, let 'em know you're here to stay and make 'em never forget it, speak hip hop until you perfect it, and if they try to get in your way make them regret. x2 Verse 2: I'm still stuck in first gear And somehow I'm okay with that cause like contacts its more clear I've conquered fears Over the years, I've busted out of my shell, in otherwords I'm like britney spears Without the mental breakdown I'll wreck an instrumental so hard you won't remember how the ba** sounds I'm takin you down with every syllable that's spoken I may not be the one but for this I was chosen (I think I'm done, this is just to much stress, my family thinks I'm acting weird, and just...you know what) I'm comin back in full throttle Makin my wish come true so I guess that I'm a genie in a bottle An apostle to this game of hip hop I make it rain while these lames make it drip drop Only clock in hours with the time that I've spent wisely Try me, puttin my soul into my music that's very likely How can life be a game if everybody loses Everybody dies, their lies lay where the truth lives And truth is, I don't know how long ill be alive Until the day I die, ill strive to progress my insides Alongside my family until I'm satisfied Ill never sell my soul, their contract ill never ratify Their parasites, diseased, they need to be under quarentine To relieve the bore, to them, ill bring the guilliotine Positive self esteem for me, ill go to extremes My pen, my pad, then my heart found in between