Pain Of Salvation - Idioglossia lyrics

It all comes back to me Face to the floor Heart in my mouth My forehead hits the pavement Again - numb - again Sharing this humility A circle of humanity Momentarily black in me Immomentarily black So black Memory leave me be Close that eye leave love blind When outcome is preceded By an outlet that is needed We forget all but the circle As soon as the ends have met As soon as the ends have met I scratch the surface and see Someone better than me Where did I suffer that loss? What was taken from me? As I search through the ashes For someone to blame I'm afraid to see my face As I walk through the ashes I whisper your name Meeting you has forced me To meet myself This blood proves me right In that the last move is all that Counts if the beasts must bite Vow to the floor Oath to the taste of dust In my mouth - never! I bite the words - never again! Will I let anyone else finish I'll be the end of every way Memory let it die left behind Leave me blind Despite all these words Not one could express What I had inside Living was to hide Kneeling in whirlpools Of pink champagne Celebrating the bravery of my pain Something broke And no water could ever wash The anger from that first stain I scratched the surface to find Someone wicked and blind Where did it come to that end? Why can't these scars ever mend? Memories... I have swallowed all these tears Thought they'd be gone After all these years Now this heart is waking up With a new hunger For my own blood As I search through the ashes For someone to blame I'm afraid to see my face As I walk through the ashes I whisper your name Meeting you have forced me To meet myself Face to the ground Heart in their mouth Foreheads hit the pavement Again - numb - again Sharing my hostility A streetful of insanity This is payback for every Tear in me, hole in me Black in me - black! Memory history agony Let me see that hideous Idioglossia that formed me Despite all these words Not one could express What I had inside Living was to hide For every time you froze me out For every punch every shout For not believing in me For your stupidity For stealing what could have been Me It all comes back to you Is this all I am?