Pain Of Salvation - Meaningless lyrics

[Verse 1] I still smell of sweat Still the scent of my giving in Tried to feel regret But I wanted to stay on my skin I still fantasize Close my eyes to the wrong again Still those "f** me" eyes As I'm licking the palm of my hand [Chorus] How the hell am I supposed to keep myself When you are so damn far away And everything feels meaningless And I am not mine How the hell am I supposed to keep myself When you are so damn far away And everything feels meaningless And I am not mine [Verse 1] I still smell of s** Still her taste on my fingertips Try to feel remorse But it's hard with her wet on my lips [Chorus] How the hell am I supposed to keep myself When you are so damn far away And everything feels meaningless And I am not mine How the hell am I supposed to keep myself When you are so damn far away And everything feels meaningless And I am not mine [Outro] I need something of my own Something with a locked door A room just for me alone Something that I can control I need something of my own I need something cutting to the bone I need something that is mine If that must be guilt then fine I wanted something nice and fine This guilt is a hole but it's mine I wanted something nice This guilt is a hole but it's mine