Pa**enger - Table for One lyrics

So I sit on this table for one And pour me a drink that'll last I'm not drunk I just miss being young And I grew old too fast My wife she breaks and she bends My children they don't understand I came here tonight in search of a friend But I'm the invisible man Cause I've swallowed my tongue And I've polished my gun And I've sat on my secrets for years With my stiff upper lip My composure won't slip And I've hidden each silent salty tear I sit on this table for one And I have been here before It's a little less than I'd had in mind But I wouldn't ask for more And my mother she taught me to write And my father he taught me his trade And I wish that they could both be here tonight To see what a mess I've made Cause I've swallowed my tongue And I've polished my gun And I've sat on my secrets for years With my stiff upper lip My composure won't slip And I've hidden each silent salty tear My sons and my daughters don't know me at all I've dug in trenches and put up walls I whisper I love you each night as they sleep But no one hears me when I speak On this table for one So I sit on this table for one I won't go till they tell me to leave Why'd they teach me to follow my dreams When dreams are all they can be?