On My Honor - The Footholds lyrics

This could've been a train wreck A total disaster The end of everything that to this point mattered Nicks and scraped and fatal falls Private breakdowns and tearful calls Not so private now, but wasn't that the point? To get this story out? We knew this would hurt But never knew how loud This is manning up This is standing ground Because you can't move forward if the footholds give out Didn't mean to be such a let down Didn't think I'd ever have to say, I'm oh so sorry but I'm not sure I have What it takes anymore. Or any faith in me I just know I'm more vulnerable Than I ever thought I could be It's probably the best that I could say If I'm too old, weak or late This all falls in your lap And I don't know how to feel about that What qualified me for this? Taxing attempts at a positive influence That I've distorted That I'm still hoping to have Can't look at this like a let down Knowing the impact made On myself On anyone tied to me Throw it away The thought that things can be the same Eyes ahead, with past outlines empty and tucked away I stopped keeping track Of everything that I'm not getting back I've learned that lists like that Only serve to counter act The progress I could make And steps that I could take It's not "getting back" It's finally finding out That you can't move forward if the footholds give out