On My Honor - Present Tense lyrics

A child on church steps Reminding me of me Not in my current state More content, more clean at seventeen Whoever he's talking to I pray they're listening So he won't end up like me Try to see the good in everything But that young man's eyes are not for me They've been blinded and removed Ground and lit and smoked by breaths too deep I'm exhaling but my stomach stays week Like I've swallowed any keys That may unlock the answers I seek [Chorus] And still, I'm sweating through my sheets, too many nights on end Talks and dreams of how I thought I'd be a better man When I compare the past to my present tense I'm as clean, as clean as I have ever been Saw an old man sitting alone Lunch on a holiday Wondered who he used to see with him And it sparked in side of me The future that I used to see The way I feel today The visions that I used to paint And the canvases in my basement sitting blank Why can't I accept what's offered to me? Why can't I accept what's offered to me? [Chorus] And still, I'm sweating through my sheets, too many nights on end Talks and dreams of how I thought I'd be a better man When I compare the past to my present tense I'm as clean, as clean as I have ever been