Ocean - The Grand Inquisitor I: Karamazov Baseness lyrics

Even if I did not believe in life If I lost my faith in the order of things Were convinced in fact that everything is a disorderly, damnable and devil-ridden chaos If I were struck by every horror of man's disillusionment Still I would want to live And having once tasted the cup I would not turn away from it Until I had drained it You are trying to save me But perhaps I am not lost Is an unworthy, uncaring father still entitled to the love and respect of his sons?