Obscure Sphinx - Nasciturus lyrics

So warm here in this flesh Is this my home, mother? One formless thing, nothing Growing to be a disturbance The silence was my greatest friend No more, no more So safe in here in this flesh Is this my home? Why… You try to tear me away Scrape out, erase, remove Would be better if you go to sleep It'll only hurt for a moment The beat of life squashed by cruel existence Feeling almost like a f**ing God Quick before the heart starts beating Quick before the neurons merge I sacrifice my own blood I sacrifice my own blood for better tomorrow Mother, tell me is this my It's so dark here, no place to hide I beg you mom, don't leave me now What if God looks here And finds out what you've done Decision stained with blood Forever a thorn on soul and heart Decision stained with blood Forever a thorn on soul and heart Decision stained with blood Forever a thorn on soul and heart Decision stained with blood Forever a thorn on soul and heart Becoming a God