Nova K - Jaded lyrics

[Verse 1: Locksmith] The basic premise of innocent dreams falling Insecurities loom in this rented room that I stall in The backlash of a back flash is the back draft From the cold chill that I feel whenever they call him Exhausting, but it cost him to be season The small sacrifices in vices that once teased him The jealously of a region that's got me leaving I'm caught in between my dreams and my father at home breathing Am I too diluted and lucid to notice That my dad is really sick, but he's lying so I can focus And foreign to foreign parents, apparently I was done He'd rather lie to my face than to fear stress in the sun I know, but it's unsettling to me How do I repay the man that's done everything for me How do I replay the plan without forgetting what I'm getting I'm letting you know now, you mean everything to me [Hook: Olamide Faison] You can say what you want Believe in what is told See people come and go So time is never froze The life I live is mine My thoughts, my mind control So read the story told If I die a jaded soul [Verse 2: Locksmith] If I'm selfish then let me selfishly Learn that for myself, see what you fail to see Is by you judging, you nudging me even further Like murder in other words, you n***as are not helping me And I'm looking at your intentions If you a hater, your actions are an extension If I forgive you, I'm giving you interest To abuse our friendship and that's only curing the symptoms So when it gets what I don't feel, then I rebuild fusades Your jealously is what's telling me, somethings odd How do I intrust my trust with a person that's so obtuse They'd rather give an excuse than just admit where they flawed So I applaud you what's plausible, but integrity is key How do you glorify yourself, that's unsettling to me How do you sort a lie, but fortify a portion I supplied I'm jaded, but I survive and that's everything to me [Hook: Olamide Faison] You can say what you want Believe in what is told See people come and go So time is never froze The life I live is mine My thoughts, my mind control So read the story told If I die a jaded soul [Verse 3: Locksmith] Now can you picture what I've painted If I disclose my soul, could you sustain it If I explained that my aim is more than just fame Would you write me off as insane Or just tainted by entertainment I'm taming my lower self No one else can see the aided I used to think that my music is saving But I guess my inner hail is what prevails until I'm shaded For now I'm just jaded