Nothing Til Blood - Gabriel lyrics

Oh what have I done? Oh these words that have been sung time and time and time again, beating against this heart like a drum-digging an open grave. To take back what we have dismayed would be to save from the misfortunes of these tears that have been paid. Oh this bitter water that flows from my face and the overwhelming sensation of this grace fills these bloodshot eyes that beats inside of me to apologize to scream "I'm sorry". My God I'm sorry, that you would break these chains off of me. But now my mouth opens and no vibrations are made, no speech is heard. Now un-forgiveness is the word that is gripped and grasped. At last bitterness is formed but it takes no form of something that can be seen, rather felt and perceived. Can this be the destiny that has been laid out for me at this altar with hands high, knees low? I cry out loud-I scream-but yet the room stays silent. Why God-why does this grieve sink into my soul leading me astray? The dark night raptures me and becomes my sanity-I find sanctity in these chains that embody me. Disaster is the road I've laid out for me. Is there no hope in this self-inflicting animosity, or is it yet another solved tragedy? Can I be free?