Noel Bush - Soul Without Trust lyrics

[Verse 1] You can't fake it You can't bake it You can't buy it for a million pounds You can't fall into it Or build up to it Or find it buried in the ground It doesn't grow on you It doesn't suddenly inhere You can't achieve it with any effort of will On an an*lyst's couch Or in a lover's bed Or in the molecules of an engineered pill You can't give it to Jesus He's not there to receive it even if you could Everybody wants it They ask for it by name They demand it of you for the public good Deep within Under the pain Underneath the childish love and hate That animate your brain All wrapped up In a lifetime of fear The hope and the loss and the cynical thoughts that Keep your head clear Something is speaking In an incoherent tongue It's making you old And keeping you young A vision of a dark land An unquenchable lust The hollow lament Of a soul without trust [Verse 2] Well I was waiting For a train that never came I was Keeping company with my woes I didn't see how You crept up to me I didn't see how you turned to go I thought a long time I stayed up twenty straight nights I looked my pitiful self straight in the face I saw a child I saw a corpse I saw a runner dropping out of the race I stopped trusting my body I left it wasting by the edge of the road Nobody said anything I just went down to the bottom To watch it silently explode High above Way off the earth In between the worlds Where we die and give birth Ripped and torn Over and again Fed to the dogs and Stood up on its end Somebody's calling Hoarse with sincerity Splitting the air With a surgical sort of parity An image of a dead man A world built out of rust The fossilized howl of despair Of a soul without trust [Bridge] Nothing much in the way of getting Permanently in your own way Alienate your friends and go down Smoking But you better keep in mind that what you Leave off to the end Is never gonna be as bittersweet As what was actually left unspoken [Verse 3] I can't tell you I can't hide it I can't give you any better than a clue I can't spell it out Or push it down I can't promise what I'm not going to do You brought it out in me You challenged it hard You showed me where it failed and where it lacked When I came back with it It didn't look right It was uncool, unkempt, and unpacked You're chasing after your k**er I saw that little cap in your clutch You don't begrudge me distractions I might get through it or not I might forget how to touch you Far away Long ago I met somebody that I Never got to know Giving up Isn't hard Just cut it off quick and Photograph the scars Nothing is advertised Nothing is known All that's lost Is left all alone The concrete incantation The magic flaked into dust The unarguable cold logic Of a soul without trust