Noaksey - Beautiful Mind lyrics

Verse 1; (Noaksey) When I wake up? Gotta dust myself off; carry on; Look out; My patients Has a minimum capacity; im simple minded; actually... I see the world in black and white; But you dont see as i see; Due to the shh on tv; There's an upper and a middle; And, lower cla** is me? ya'll can have a laugh at me; But, please give me a reason for this pain and confusion These thoughts inside my mind; i, can't see past illusion I wanna be a winner, but it seems im always loosing; Mind's dieing from the d** that im constantly abusing Using; this anger... I just can't handle... These aches and these pains; leave my brain feeling mangled; Its hard to digest; when, its trapped in your chest So, i constantly push it to the back of my head; Were once feeling at your best; but, now im feeling vexed; Cah every time I see myself; all I see is f**ing d**h! (HOOK) Verse 2;(Noaksey) If you have ever seen violence and its been close to home; Know that it is even closer when the house was your own...! If your born into money then The benefits you reap.. Is a good night sleep; And, always having food to eat The basic necessities of life; See, I am outa sight I am out of light, So, Gimme me a direction; A clue and a knife; you can catch me out at night! Every life is given; but, mine was taken right!? (Clarky) So, i ain't taking sides; but, now; (hmmm?) You c*nts; can rush; and duck the f** out! (s** out) I run up in this game; im stuck now...but; Ima buck; up in this dub like shes a s*ut! (ahh) I ain't saying that im bad; or i regret the life i had; I think its mad how; i can come from nothing and; Still stand proud; cah now i got alot so i floss; Like a boss! beautiful mind; ugly world; its alot! Verse 3; (Noaksey) I've done some wrongs That need righting... See these songs i been writing?; Ain't ever been about taking d**! Or doing jobs in tha night; Being anti social; and, yeah still I'm fighting; Cause I heard that finding; peace with your demons; Will, eventually enlighten? Is; this, just the beginning; or Very near the end; of the world as we know it; so Let's not pretend; I've heard it all before... its '02 again! Each years the same; oh wait, what a shame; who's to blame? Each day pa**es; growing older; im Tired and im broken My nights are getting colder; Home alone; No ones to blame; No ones fault but my own; With the weight, Of; Others peoples problems on my shoulder; feel for a bullet; In the chamber; And, a gun out of the holster... Safety's off...! Now I'm able; cause the tables have turned; now its me who's unstable; never put down the weed fam I smoke a lot...! (I mean the thought of growing up; but i thought id grown alot!)