Nightingale - Misery lyrics

I believe in self-destruction I am heading for the grave I am losing my direction I will never smile again I am waiting for the downfall I'm longing for the end The darkness all around me is My one and only friend I believe that life is just a game Another day, but the pain remains the same Eternal misery I'm living in denial of all I am The world around is waiting for me To stumble and to fall And whenever I need someone I Always find no one at all It has always been this way for me Since the day that I was born A bearer of a shattered soul and a Mind all ripped and torn I believe that life is just a game Another day but the pain remains the same Eternal misery I'm living in denial of all I am I feel my time is running out I am wasted in this world But I am too afraid to end my life I live in fear of the other side I find shelter in the liquids I'm hiding in the smoke I wish I knew why I was born and Why my life such a joke I am the god of self-deception in The kingdom of despair Even in the light of day I see darkness everywhere I am looking for the answer Can you tell me why I am here I'm feeling weaker day by dad I am soon to disappear I can feel my time is running out I'll never know what life is all about Eternal misery I'm living in denial of all I am