Nathan Suarez - Crystal Ball lyrics

[Verse 1] Starry nights van goh flows, artistry at its finest I'm trying to shine the light at any f**ing spotlight Girl i see you living I'm recognizing everything 20/20 vision I see things with the clarity, it's clear to me that I'll probably die alone, burdens on my shoulders but that sh** feels like a stone Road trip dazing I'm always on the road The time of day I give to her is too damn slow Told her I'm always focused on bettering my flow She asked me when Im gonna come home I showed her a calendar It had my schedule on it In order for me to go home now I'd have to be super sonic She knew I was busy and she said she was committed Now she regrets the decision and said that'd shed give in She said I've had enough I told her don't go She said I've had a boy for months and you'd never f**ing know She hung up fast after that low blow, reputation carving she made herself a hoe, too bad I couldn't dwell on it too long I had a show Then after I performed I had to hit the road, my mind was spinning fast like outta control Then I woke up sweating breathing fast in a panic Thinking that sh** was real man that sh** was tragic Reached over to my counter so I could drink my gla** of water Thinking about the sh** that I had heard from my father Telling me things discouraging me That's the kind of sh** that influenced my dreams I layed back down and I felt through it all Now I understood what it is that I saw My emotions went through all it is was raw Rap is just my calling and I answered the call But with that lifestyle comes the partying Drinking hard everynight Because you f**ing can Getting wasted with your friends to prove that your the man I don't think I'm ready for it And it's approaching me Coming at me fast that sh** hit super speed Got some sh** to do I'll call that mr deeds Legacy creating man I'm feeling like Apollo creed Yeah but back to my dream I went back to sleep and tried to forget it all But the pain was too real, almost felt as if I hit a rock wall Buying time for me, they tried to f**ing stall Knowing that id have to go through it all [Hook] This is what I see with my own crystal ball Every night I dream this the kinda sh** I see Then when it really happens is when I stop to dream Seeing things that I can't believe [Verse 2] Let's go back where we left off She left my a** and I'm on tour we hit the road to take off On the bus with a pencil in my hand Writing music down then it started sounding bland Ears started ringing Heart started pounding I had a heart attack and my life had barley started Next thing I know I'm on a f**ing cart and Being rolled in to a dark f**ing closet I see beams of light at the end of a tunnel I'm starting to go towards it faster and faster Then I drifted off and changed course to the side The fear and disbelief that you could see in my eyes I saw first hand where I was gonna end up Hell at its finest had the fire blazing up So then I stopped dreaming and woke up for good Music is a curse but sometimes can do good