Natalie Duncan - Became So Sweet lyrics

I don't seem to recall waking up When you pa**ed me the Bucket and I let out my guts There were red litanies and Prayers of lying here forever With lust and alcohol all mixed Up together No I've not looked upon there last 2 years With clearer Solecism or clever tears More men have seemed to have Taken my mind and my body Than the thoughts of dying and Becoming somebody And I wanna, write to you, recite it to you Before I, fight with you Please. You seem to have come out of Nowhere and started Up a fight between us The ones that redeemed us Are no longer here Between our nights round the fire, so Many pills and thrills and musings On how long our youth Will, hold us up before making us Ill and then, crumble Beneath our facilitating will No I'd never seen so many lights Incidentally I sold my soul Beneath those lights and every circle Seemed to be a line Are we fine? Are we searching For a wall to beam us up Black devil won't you beam me up now Hurricane now feed us love Somewhere in the middle of these dreams I became, I became, I became so sweet There was a child behind your soul Making your eyes look doughy I always fantasised about painting your body An immaculate sculpture, a totem Like a tiger on a rainbow Swooning over these shiny romanticisms Then I wake myself up, I make myself up 'Cause maybe the mate of a soul Is not as real as hole inside of your heart Inside of your mind and I'm longing for this richness to find Comfort, wrapped around his words Wrapped around his eyes, his anger, his truth, his cries and I Created this minefield And I wash away every plea to become a scene cause I Started up in a f**ed up fashion And ended up wanting to be his housewife but I made my mind up ten years ago and I made Such a beautifully strange life Because, here I am and I got the sun in my hand I got the prospect of really becoming Not like the films or the songs or the ideals I made up I wanna a wall to beam me...