Nas - My Worse Enemy lyrics

[Intro: Nas] Yea, uh, uh, real n***az dawg, ya heard Yea, journey to the life, just journey [Verse One: Nas] I'm the n***a that ain't loud Throw C-low, never ace out Only move out wit a particular crew, I hate crowds The observer, money and murder the hood praise it I was raised in it, early age Was presented with the ultimatum Be a boss with a army, drop the Atari games Hard c**aine that had my neighborhood strung out Brains numb out, guns out I was smart high hopes in my heart But dope cartels would emerge Bloody shirts on n***az while they hollerin' 'Til their lungs don't work Figures I end up with a scarred memory of my youth With dudes in the drug loot, feelin' henny "SHOOT" My n***a Will still here, man I wish it was truth Buried in his favorite sh**, FILA sneakers and FILA suit My eyes are the window of my soul My n***az let the Indo roll Thinkin' time flies we gettin' old That's the words of my right hand man, my main dawg We been rollin since day one, he down for the cause All he talk is extortion, kidnap sh**, big gat sh** I'm like - "yo think positive", but he act sick He only think about lettin' his Mac spit He like f** who he hit Me it bothers, 'cause he know I'm rent 'em it regardless If he keep wildin' out he's makin' both of us targets So I pull him, tell him on some deep sh**, try to school 'em We already lost n***az by how we was movin' We still livin', but our lives need much improvin' I think I'm gonna lose 'em [Chorus: Nas] I was blind in this world All I thought about was diamonds and pearls I had beef wit a n***a, then I'm clappin' his girl Nappin' his kids, ransack and run through his rib Blow up his mom's crib, there's no way he could live It's gettin' clearer, starin' at the man in the mirror Like all this time, it's just a fragment of my mind Come to find out, sh** wasn't what is made to be In reality +My Worst Enemy+ was me [Verse Two: Nas] Feelin' like I got the dons clout Trigger pawn co*ked glocks spray up your moms spot I ain't playin' wit you, war, f** pistols Bring machines, icy bell buckles, ten guns, M-1'S with ice muzzles Life's a struggle, get your wifey touch too, everybody involved Homicide, doctors patchin' up your war scars Task Force chargin' at us, news flash, thug crews blast at officers Coroners pick you up from the gra** Livin' fast 'til somebody tries meltin' my chest I'm high loosin' it, could of hit my own self with the tec Refuse to quit, but I tried tellin' me to relax It's like I can't hear my words 'til I'm trapped to the max Even then I blame everybody else except me, pops left me I was just three, I cried for help, moms was busy That don't mean n***a's stupid But I got a habit wit - makin' up excuses Was born ruthless, hated school, they ain't teach me I'm a bad seed Planted in this ghetto, where my n***az can't read Multiply, subtract; only knowin' how to count cracks and count stacks Now what y'all know about that One side of me wanted out of this life Glue traps on the floor for the mice 'Til the n***a saw the light I wanted money when I got it, I would spend it I wanted j**els, but when I heard it, yo I wouldn't listen All of the drama in my life I got my self into All the toxins my body took in, faded my mental I let these n***az words get to me But I'm tired of my ice, tired of Bentley It's the end of the century I recognized the world is a beautiful place n***az opinions ruinin' my musical taste 'Cause everytime I caught a case, could of got me in jail If you wasn't scared of jail, you more likely to fail I thought the whole world was cursed, from the hand I was dealt And +My Worst Enemy+ was my self Word to my self...word to my self...word to my self... [Chorus: Nas] I was blind to the world All I thought about was diamonds and pearls I had beef wit a n***a, then I'm clappin' his girl Nappin' his kids, ransack, run through his rib Blow up his mom's crib, there's no way he could live It's gettin' clearer, starin' at the man in the mirror 'Cause all this time, it was a fragment in my mind Come to find out, sh** wasn't what is made to be In reality +My Worst Enemy+ was me