Naj - Forgiven lyrics

[Intro: Kola Rai] I can't trust you babe, I can't, I can't trust you babe Want to forgive you, want to forgive you, want to forgive you.. (Repeat 2x) [Verse 1: Naj] To whom it may concern Them funky feelings I was concealing Had me acting out Got me looking like a villain to you Never asked "Yo son, what's fulfilling to you?" I'm the corner-piece of the family What's Sicilian to you? What's a strong man without a strong wife? At home dedicating her time to his long nights? What's the chances of his son Learning the wrongs, rights Without being blinded by life and all of it's strong lights? When he counting on you But still waiting on you Always had your back even when the whole fam was hating on you I remember the fights with my mom Plans we would set up And I'd be sitting on the lawn She be like "He ain't coming maybe he'll come in the morning" Fighting her own cries Because I'm tearing and yawning Though I been living, I been living It's kind of hard to be forgiving [Hook: Kola Rai] It's a shame I can't trust you Can't believe you did me wrong All i wanted to do was love you Bet you'll miss me when I'm gone See I can only give you so much but It seems that my love ain't enough But hey, you say that you just living, you just living It's kind of hard to be forgiven [Verse 2: Naj] Problems after problems piling over the years Got me out of options placing love over fear Fear of disappointment in hoping people care Reminiscing, about when I wasn't so open to share The life, the times, trials and tribulations Cause simulating a painting Is never too stimulating, damn How these old memories give me new pain? Situations come and go no matter who changed So I wrote these letters, to clear my soul of vendettas Of losing what I grew to want I'm still wishing I met her God makes no mistakes So it wasn't meant to be So I can't force a vision I was never meant to see Still coming to terms that You weren't meant to grow? How would you smile? How would you look? Wish I could know But, when you've been living, you've been living You just hope You'll be forgiven [Hook: Kola Rai] [Verse 3: Naj] That fight to forgive, will f** up your soul What good is holding the grudge? Or a fight for control? What good is love If you can't fight for the sh**? Like what good is a follower If they ain't liking Your pic? Sometimes, love felt like we was hiking a cliff Lost control, hit rock bottom Couldn't fight for the grip? sh**, they predicted I'd slip Fell into it She don't need a Knick game Just mad L's and mellow music Wish my own Fam was as loyal as her If I wasn't in my room Leaving with sh** under their shirt Take out on me your hard living? My flows is God given Never gave God wisdom Avoiding the posh Christians Granny told me my generation Lost to the system Could have got lost in the prison Instead got lost in the rhythm But, when you been living, You been living You already know, true love is endless forgiveness [Hook: Kola Rai]