My Ruin - Terror lyrics

This is what you call me... I strike terror among men I can't be bothered with what I think I bare my cross, my soul, myself I forgive ... but I never forget I've been put upon this earth in FEMALE form But I can't handle myself with the best of you as well as the worst and I often have I have the right to remain silent but I choose to speak, sing scream I am LIPS, HIPS, TITS... I AM THE POWER OF A WOMAN STRONG like music true like friendship but without my friends there would be no music... only spoken word f**er! I am able to change so I live without regret, without remorse Only a remix I am drunk, I am sober. Heaven doesn't want me and hells affraid I'll take over. Don't bother trying to censor me, or shut me up because it won't work. I am cold and distant yet worm and close to those who deserve to see that side of me part of me... the heart of me. You find me so hard to understand in your world, the world you percieve to be so normal I am deformed... scorned, reborn I am me and I know exactly who I am, what I am and the wrath I bring the ugly beauty, the lying truth, the virgin who*e... the quiet storma lover, a fighter, a saint, a sinner, a sister, a daughter old school...... a beginer. I have decorated my self with love, hate, truth... you all of you, both of you, none of you... more than one of you with lips like sugar, eyes like meat. I've watched men come, go and cheat I sleep to dream and dream of sleep. I had a dream Joe that you were standing in the middle of an open road. I had a dream Joe that your hands were raised up to the sky and your mouth was covered in foam. I've been crucified, justified and mortified by my behaviour, both feminine and masculine. I am contradiction and a juxtapostion. my relief is my release and only time will tell all is well that ends well. I am unsweetened, unclean... being called drama queen, ex-girlfriend, ex-member... the tantrum, the temper I paint my finger... take the blame and this time I will own the name because nobody is going to ruin me, if I have to I WILL RUIN MY SELF AND IT WILL BE 'MY RUIN' f**er!