It seems that i'm trapped, with no shield, no sword The unbeaten path got my soul so sore Allured by the lust, something gil can't cure The devil want me as he is, but god wants more Ever wish you never was born Threat coming but you know that you can’t weather the storm Sector 7 outer heaven where i seem to reside Trained to kill but i don't really wanna another homicide Everything i thought was the real, it turned out to be a lie A product of my pride i don’t want us to die Eithеr outcome is horrible of course But if wе both go i'd say its par for the course I think about the slums where i'm from, folks are out there fighting over crumbs And running guns And i can't do a thing to assist I'm john stockton, without a ring, and the gist is It's broke and i can't seem to fix it Earth out of control like scientists predicted While i read, struggle to find the truth And the more i learn i'm even more confused Out here i'm searching for who i think is the enemy But every day he reminds me more of me So to anyone i ever did wrong Imma wish you well and pray that you live long As for me my choice was made 5 years ago on that day And it ain't been the same way Since 5 years ago on that day Since 5 years ago on that day Since 5 years ago on that day Ever wish you didn't have to wake up Can lay in bed, eyelids could stay shut That's exactly how i'm feelin' now But i know i can't cuz that's not my style Everything i shoved in my closet is now fallin' out And makin' a big pile And if i don't believe i can achieve I need to quit it right now Either outcome just another let down So i think about the past and what it did to me Those who passed on who now live through me I hesitated to take action And living like a coward just ain't crackin' The more i know, i get more frustrated I must press on cuz we must make it I'm searching for who i think is my true friends And trying my best now to tie up these loose ends So to anyone i ever loved Sometimes you gotta go through hell to reach heaven above, man For all of the times i didn't listen And all the friends i lost man i miss them The only medicine for suffering, crimes and the woes of mankind is wisdom I heard a man say the mind is a prison Possessed on a quest still tryna find religion Just too much heartache Lead em to the water but can't make em partake 808s autotune and of course the heartbreak Heart race like the moment right before a car chase Feelin' like biggie on midnight of march 8 Top of the world till you starin' in god's face As for me my choice was made 5 years ago on that day And it ain't been the same way Since 5 years ago on that day Since 5 years ago on that day Since 5 years ago on that day