Meek Mill - Traumatized lyrics

[Verse 1:] It really hurt me when they k**ed Shotty I was locked down in my cell and I had to read about it And when they k**ed Diddy, left him out in Philly We was young and gettin' money, man we used to run the city We was rockin' all them shows, f**in' all them hoes And when they k**ed Darryl, Renee had to see him froze on the ground Downtown, I can hear the sounds now When she walked up to that casket seen her son and fell down I drop tears for my n***as that ain't here And still think about you even though that it been years Cause half the n***as that I grew up with is all dead All this pain and all this stressin' I should have a bald head Cause when my Aunt Rhonda died she looked Tock in his eyes Saw d**h comin', when she seen it she just cried Prolly part of the reason we drink and we get high When I find the n***a that k**ed my daddy know I'mma ride Hope you hear me, I'mma k** you n***a To let you know that I don't feel you n***a Yeah, you ripped my family apart and made my momma cry So when I see you n***a it's gon' be a homicide Cuz I was only a toddler, you left me traumatized You made me man of the house and it was grindin' time So I'mma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you And for all them cloudy days I'mma let this rain hit you n***a [Hook:] I know [x8] You ripped my family apart and made my momma cry So when I see you n***a it's gon' be a homicide I know [x8] So I'mma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you And for all them cloudy days I'mma let this rain hit you n***a [Verse 2:] And I ain't ready n***as wanna murder me I'm ridin' around heavy I think they wanna wet me like New Orleans and the levees But I got this mac elevy, these n***as'll never get me Lord knows, I got alotta homies in the dirt n***as sprayin' metal tryna take you off the earth Really over nothin', tell me what it's worth Tryna take you out the game just to put you on a shirt I Rose from the jungle like Derrick d**h to anybody that oppose my spirit My future lookin' brighter than this rose I'm starin' at We be runnin' trains on the hoes y'all cherish Rest in peace to my n***as, I swear I miss them to d**h My hammer sing murda music, I'll let you listen to d**h I'll have you walk with the reaper when hollows rip through your chest Cause if you throw 'em I throw back like Mitchell & Ness I'm gone [Hook:] I know [x8] You ripped my family apart and made my momma cry So when I see you n***a it's gon' be a homicide I know [x8] So I'mma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you And for all them cloudy days I'mma let this rain hit you n***a [Verse 3:] Man my life so real Last night I went to sleep and woke up with the chills Started with a dollar now I got a couple mil And I make a hundred thousand every time a n***a spill Man I almost got murked in front of the same church My dad got carried in, family got married in That was in my older days, this is now, that was then Had the block jumpin' for them dollars, Shawn Marion Young n***a gon' get my own that's why I'm arrogant Homie need the bail, for them bonds we'll bury 'em Lock 'em like a terrier Breakin' all barriers Just to beat the trial we go miles like Darius Cause cops tryna catch me, n***as tryna clap me Haters runnin at me, know they wanna get at me And people got the nerve to ask why I don't look happy I did it for my n***as, and I did this sh** for Kathy [Hook:] I know [x8] You ripped my family apart and made my momma cry So when I see you n***a it's gon' be a homicide I know [x8] So I'mma let this flame hit you just to let this pain hit you And for all them cloudy days I'mma let this rain hit you n***a