Mayfield - A Longing For The Still lyrics

This isn't the place where I thought I would be Caught in the chase and forgot how to breathe A blink and a laugh, it's now all but a memory I'm not the man who I swore I would be Who lived everyday like the last one he'd see But I'm not a liar, the truth is a thief If you asked how I saw myself - where I'd be Losing hope and lost at 23 Honestly, this is reality catching up with me I can't find ways to harness time Everyday, falling further back to yesterday Absent minded of all that I have I can't get it back My childhood: a past life An alternate universe Days slipping away, like sand through my fingertips Like sand, slipping away The only way I can make this last is to push myself until there's nothing left Make a mark on my f**ing life This is the last chance standing in a world of lies I bleed myself dry Draining the love I've got, until my face goes white and my heart just rots So if you asked how I saw myself living out every single f**ing day in hell I know that I've been here too long It's time to get out right now I need to get out now The world is waiting, and I can't wallow in my self-deception, Swallowing me whole Let it all sink in We spend too much time living inside our minds We waste in time as a vessel for the soul and live as apparitions. We live to conquer We live to embrace the human connection And we live to face annihilation Watch the wind carry on Feel time slip through your fingertips Stretch your limbs high and breathe deep as your body seeps into the soil Greet the light with all the respect it deserves This isn't the place where I thought I would be Caught in the chase and forgot how to breathe A blink and a laugh, it's now all but a memory I'm still not the man who I swore I would be But with each pa**ing day, the clearer I see I know the truth and that's all that I need Don't hold back your dreams for fear of failure The only anchor you'll set is your own Learn to let go